Hello! It's been a while.
Like a month or so.
I haven't had a whole lot to share. Things have been busy. Who likes hearing about that?
I've been addicted to Candy Crush. I have actually beaten all the levels of the regular "world" and the dream "world" with the owl. I don't know if I'm proud or embarrassed to admit that. When I say things have been busy, let's be honest. I've mostly been busy conquering Candy Crush.
Squirt continues to be super snuggly. She is purring next to me now. And has even started to greet us at the door when we arrive home from somewhere, like a dog would.
I sold Moko's crate. It was a little bittersweet. On the one hand - a relief that it's gone and no loner a standing reminder of her absence. On the other hand - the empty spot behind my couch is just a different kind of reminder of the doglessness of our house. I find myself thinking about getting another dog almost daily. But I know we should really wait till we move. I want two dogs. Big dogs. It's so strange to me now to not have a dog in my house. And I really do miss the layer of (albeit perceived) protection that she offered.
There have been several times I've been laying in bed at night and I think I hear someone on my stairs. And I think about how if Moko were still with us, if there really was someone on my stairs, I would know for sure because she would be barking her head off. Now I wouldn't know till it was too late.
I miss her.
So, I've been gaining back some of the weight I lost. Actually, I gained back what I lost while my body was in starvation mode.
Oh yeah - starvation mode - that was fun. I got to a point where I was eating so little, that my body started to hold on to weight and I started to gain. I didn't even get there intentionally. I think that the drastic reduction in carbs from my diet led me to be satisfied on less than I would be on a carb-rich diet. My stomach probably shrank. My diet wasn't changing much and I was pretty close to being on-plan with Paleo, yet I was gaining. It also stumped me because almost every time I ate, I felt nauseous. (Several people thought I was pregnant - but several pregnancy tests proved them wrong.) I started tracking what I was eating to see if I could figure out what was making me nauseous. And I plugged it all into My Fitness Pal one day and found that I was eating about 800-900 calories a day. Totally unintentionally. And I just wasn't hungry for more. My Weight Watchers counselor figured out that I was gaining because I was in starvation mode. So I talked to my trainer, and we figured out how to get me back to normal. Around that time, I dropped 5 pounds in 2 weeks. But as I worked to return my eating habits to normal, I also gained those 5 pounds back. So I'm kind of back to where I started prior to going into starvation mode. By the way, anyone who tells you starvation mode isn't real, or is a myth - is deluded. That shit was real.
I've been pretty much Paleo during the week and on the weekends I am a little more free with my food choices. I've had a lot of social stuff going on the past several weeks so I've been a little more off-plan than usual, but I am getting back on track now.
I started a new Instagram account just for the food I make. It's called @thesasmstrcooks . Check it out if you dare. Maybe it will inspire me (as this blog does) to hold myself accountable and stay on track. But I will not just post pics of diet food. I will post pics of the totally slutty food I make too.
My allergies have been killing me. Anybody else? I don't know about any of the other cities, but Philadelphia has it pretty bad this year. This is the worst allergy season I've ever experienced in my whole life, no joke. When I wake up in the morning I feel like death. And I can barely breathe at night and my eyes are red and sore from being rubbed all the time. Ugh. Go away pollen.
My BFFPIC Courtnee was just here for a weekend visit from Indiana. I took her to NYC and all around Philly. Yesterday we went to Eastern State Penitentiary, which I'd never been to before. I took my film camera and can't wait to get the film developed. I will be sure to post the pictures here when it's done!
I miss her already. And so does Maraea. She can't wait to go visit Courtnee on her farm. Maybe next year.
I have two vacations this year. Vegas in August to renew my vows, and Virginia Beach in September with my family. Every time I start to zone out anywhere, that's what I'm thinking of. I can't wait to go on vacation. I must really need a break.
So I have pretty much quit Facebook for good. I had deleted the app from my phone and wasn't missing it one bit. Then I got an email from Facebook - one of those "Do you know X, Y, and Z?" emails - and X and Y were my therapist and my chiropractor. How in the hell would Facebook know that I know those two people? A friend of mine pointed out that it's practically a HIPAA violation - and I agree. So that sealed it. I am probably not going back to Facebook. I will leave my account up because I can stay in touch with others that I have no other way of getting in touch with, but that's it. I can't stand it anymore. Later fb.
I think documenting a life in pictures is more attractive than documenting a life in status updates anyway. Instagram > Facebook.