Something has clicked inside of me. Something has really changed.
About six weeks or so ago, I started strength training. I worked with a trainer who gave me upper body and lower body exercises that I could fit into my normal workout which included calisthenics and fasted cardio. The plan was to start slowly and increase the amount of strength training per week to 2x/week upper body and 2x/week lower body. Over the past several weeks, I have been doing these exercises religiously - to the point where if I have to miss a workout (because of meatheads who leave plates on the Olympic bar that I can't for the life of me remove), it legit ruins my day. I get PISSED. ROID RAGE! Only I'm not on any roids. hahahah
Anyway. I have lost complete interest in calisthenics and cardio at this point. I don't want to do anything except lift weights. Over the past several years, I have killed myself with different kinds of cardio and calisthenics all for very meager visual results. In the few weeks I've been strength training, I have noticed more results than I ever did with cardio. This week I am changing my routine to be doing whole body strength training 3x a week, with cardio and calisthenics on the other two days. And I'm excited! You guys, I've been getting up at 5am and working out at work at 7am for ELEVEN WEEKS now. I have never stuck to a routine this long. Working out first thing in the morning is meant for me. And I like that strength training allows me to continue to reinvent my workout and get noticeable results. My arms are really taking shape. And my legs are getting so strong.
But aside from this continued motivation and excitement about going to the gym, the way I know something has truly clicked and truly changed.... is because I'm working out on vacation.
Two weeks ago, my husband and I went to Vegas for our 10 year wedding anniversary. The first thing we both wanted to do upon landing was get to the hotel gym and workout. We couldn't though, because we were way too early for check-in. So we wandered around and had lunch. Cheeseburgers, fries, cocktails, and a frozen hot chocolate for me. We made our way back to the hotel to check-in, got into our room, and promptly changed to hit the gym. Even after imbibing. Crazy. I have never worked out on vacation before. I have always viewed vacation as my break from the drudgery of working out. Not in Vegas! We even aimed to eat healthy while there. I mean - we ate what we wanted, when we wanted, but we really did not overdo it.
Later this week, we leave for Virginia Beach for a week. We got this gorgeous house with a pool and of course we are bringing Maraea and my sister Caitlin is tagging along too. I have been borderline-freaking-out about where I am going to get my workout in next week. Because it can't be just cardio. I can't just go for a run on the beach. That won't satisfy me. I MUST LIFT WEIGHTS. Luckily I found a rec center nearby that we can go to for $8 a day. But seriously? I have never done this before. Found a local gym to continue my workout routine? Like I said, normally vacations were my break from working out too. Not this time. Also, we will be eating healthy breakfasts and lunches (yes I have already planned everything out), and normal dinners that are okay to eat as long as you are working out too (steaks, potatoes, burgers, fries, going out to eat, etc). When I was in Vegas, I felt so much better about splurging a little if I wanted to, if I'd already worked out that day. I'm sure Virginia Beach will be no different.
Another update - I quit Weight Watchers. I got really discouraged in my last several weeks. Even though my eating has been on target except for my cheat meals, I was gaining weight. Now, I am SURE that it's because of strength training, and building muscle. But that didn't stop me from feeling discouraged and bummed out. I woke up one Thursday morning excited for weigh-in because I felt so good and I looked so good. And I'd gained 3 lbs! I just want to stop focusing on that number so much. I don't want to care what I weigh - I never have. I just want to feel healthy, and feel good about myself. I feel amazing right now. I have never felt better in the past 4 years since I started working out, than I do right now. And I just didn't want WW to be the Debbie Downer in my life. I want to continue working out and eating right and not focus on that number.
I don't want to be skinny - I want to be strong.
Do you know I even started researching CrossFit gyms in the area? It still kinda scares me. But I might be heading towards that. I'm not sure yet.
Anyway. I'm so excited about exercise now. I love where I am and I love where I'm going and I only want it to continue and get better.